A Special Kind Of Blindness

It’s been a little over a month since my last post. It wasn’t my intention to go this long without writing – this topic has been in the works for quite sometime now – but I’ve finally completed it. Well, I think I have anyway. There’s so much that could be said about having a special kind of blindness but I don’t think all of it can be said in a single post. Maybe in a series of posts.

For sometime now, I have felt that I wasn’t as zealous for God as I have been before. I say that because there was a time where I was always prayerful, speaking in tongues, and reading the bible regularly. It’s just not been the case anymore. So I made a decision to renew a covenant of prayer with God. You see, I needed a personal revival. My pastor has been preaching on revival the last couple of services, and what I took away from it was that instead of waiting for revival to come, I needed to have my own personal revival. It requires a special kind of dedication and blindness to consecrate ourselves to ways of God.

On this journey, I have been sure to spend time in prayer and read the word. It’s been tough – I’ve had hiccups here and there; and I’ve felt like I’ve backslid a bit. But you know what, the God that I serve is a gracious and kind God. He is always there to encourage and nudge you along the way. And that’s what He’s done. When I felt like I wasn’t worthy of Him, He’d use my wife, close friends and family, to encourage me to get back on the right path. And I’m grateful for that. This is just the beginning and the journey ahead is going to be long and hard. No doubt. When I say this journey require a special kind of blindness, what I’m saying is that  – You need reconcile your sins with God and get on your knees and pray. ALL. THE. TIME. Get in the word. Read a bible chapter or two everyday. Start a devotional. Join a bible study group. Be focused and dedicated to giving yourself wholly to God. I am certain that if you’re consistently pressing in and letting God direct your steps, you’re life and those around you, will change for the better – Because God is in control.

But of course – there are traps that the evil one sets on your ascent. I don’t want to credit the evil one but I don’t want to be ignorant of his devices. We are all human beings and we know the things that tempt us. Don’t give way to those things, but rather be focused on God. Be confident in God’s authority over all disciplines of your life. Understand your calling in God. And prepare yourself for God to direct you on His path. 

I pray that you have your own personal revival by seeking God first, and allow Him to direct your life. If you’re reading this and you’ve never accepted Jesus as Lord over your life, I pray that you recognize that you need Him and ultimately give your life to Him. I also invite you to come join me and my church at East Gate Christian Fellowship in Salem, MA for our Friday night services at 7 PM as well as Sunday morning services at 10 AM.

Keep the blinders on. Stay in prayer. Be Well and Be Blessed.


Cultivating a Sense of Responsibility.

Here’s a story:

One man challenged another to an all-day wood chopping contest. The challenger worked very hard, stopping only for a brief lunch break. The other man had a leisurely lunch and took several breaks during the day. At the end of the day, the challenger was surprised and annoyed to find that the other fellow had copped substantially more wood than he had. “I don’t get it,” he said. “Every time I checked, you were taking a rest, yet you chopped more wood than I did.” “But you didn’t notice,” said the winning woodsman, “that I was sharpening my ax when I sat down to rest.”  

In this story, we see 2 men who are tasked with chopping wood. Both men have a different way of completing their tasks. In their own right, they both thought that their process would have them chop more wood than the other. Too many times, we are concerned with what other people are doing instead of focusing on our tasks. This lack of focus robs us of energy and attention that our tasks warrant. Having an intense focus on our goals allows us to be truly engrossed in them thus accomplishing them. However, I have found that in order to accomplish these goals, we need to cultivate a sense of responsibility. This requires maturity – without maturity, it is difficult to cultivate a sense of responsibility.

A person with a sense of responsibility is one who feels responsible. I have had many responsibilities in my life – as well as most of you. After I married my wife, I had a much more greater sense of responsibility. I was now responsible for leading, providing, and protecting her. Walter Rowe Courtenay expressed: “I personally feel that I owe a double duty to life: a solemn duty to my ancestors, and a pressing duty to my descendants.” This rings so true for me, personally. For the past year and half that I have been married, I have matured a lot. It is evident to me that my attention has shifted outward to my family, church ministry, etc. It has been a very trying process, but God has always provided me with the strength to fulfill my responsibilities. To gauge whether I did indeed mature and cultivated a sense of responsibility, I asked myself some of these questions below – there are many more but this is just to give you an example of how to access your maturity level.

  • Are you faithful to keep appointments?
  • Can you be depended on?
  • Cay you lend a helping hand or do you easily slip away quietly?
  • Are you careful about your financial obligations?

I meditated on these questions (and many others) to get a deeper understanding of what kind of man I really wanted to be for my family. I implore you all to get an inventory done on what is really important to you and what kind of responsibilities you’re focusing on.

When my daughter was born, my sense of responsibility was heightened. In addition to leading, providing, and protecting my wife – now I have had to ensure that our daughter is cared for, nurtured and ultimately grows into an excellent woman of God. Parenthood is new to me; but along with my wife, we are learning and it gets easier as we follow God’s direction for our lives. I don’t take lightly the responsibilities that I have – I ask God daily to give me strength to fulfill my responsibilities.

Like the story with the 2 men chopping wood, we all have tasks that require our attention and intense focus. How we choose to accomplish those tasks is up to our process. Let us all be true to our own process. There is always someone looking for our guidance. And there are those looking to critique your process. Don’t be swayed – stay on the path.

And now, a hymn by Howard Arnold Walter:

I would be true, for there are those who trust me. 

I would be pure, for there are those who care. 

I would be strong, for there is much to suffer. 

I would be brave, for there is much to dare. 


#CallToAction – What are your responsibilities? How are fulfilling your goals? Are you being true to your process? Ask yourself these questions if you want to cultivate a sense of responsibility for those pressing matters in your life and that of others around you.

Be well and blessed.

-Nathan R.E. Kituuma

Richard Shelley Taylor – On Priorities

I am currently reading Richard Shelley Taylor’s book, “The Disciplined Life – Studies in the fine art of Christian Discipleship” and I have to say this is one of the best books I have read in a while. He talks about the plight of modern man being summed up as, “striving for the road of self-indulgence. The way of least resistance.”

While reading his book I realize how many facets of my life I need to improve. One of those things, which is a surprise to me really because I thought I was very good at it, is getting my priorities right. Making the right decisions and selections  for my life. Being a husband and father to a 5 week old baby girl is challenging. But I am managing okay – my wife is great with the baby and we are learning a lot together as we embark on this journey. In everything, however, I have realized that I need to prioritize better. It makes life that much simpler.

Below is an excerpt from “The Disciplined Life”. As I was reading this portion of the book, I knew that I needed to share with my friends and family. I hope this stirs you up as much as it stirred me.

“Selection – Selection – Selection! This is the law of life.” “……Our stature as men and women, certainly our stature as Christians, will be determined exactly and entirely by our skill in selecting. If we give top priority to those pursuits which should have low priority, if we”major in minors,” if we show a “first-rate dedication to second-rate causes,” if we allow friends and impulse and the convenience of the moment to dictate our priorities, while we weakly drift with the tide of daily circumstances, we will shabby, mediocre, and ineffective persons. If we affirm certain priorities but fail to give them first place day by day; if we allow them to remain in the ‘never-never-land’ of good intentions, without rigid adherence right now – the end result of character-zero will be just as sure. Now we must put first things first. And we must do it no matter how much more pleasant and appealing other things maybe be at the moment.”

I will rigidly adhere to putting first things first. Will you?